Texas

Greetings SCARS readers!

I just got back from 3 days of insanity and adventure!

For about 6 months, I've been planing a shoot for my company APPLE WORM PRODUCTIONS to promote the upcoming website. Naturally I employed the services of LITHIUM PICNIC (www.lithiumpicnic.com) who is one of my all-time favorite photographers. I also teamed up with SINched (www.getsinched.com) because they make THE most amazing corsets ever and I love them.

Since I was going to be in Houston shooting with Mr.Picnic anyway ... I decided to hire him to shoot my entry fro the N.A.H.A. awards too. (N.A.H.A. awards being a HUGE hair styling competition.) I picked the theme "sideshow freaks" and bribed Sarah Swofford, Pandora Genocide, and Kaila Marie into letting me transform them into said freaks.

Sarah Swofford lives in Dallas, so Houston is about 4 hours away for her. St.Louis, where the rest of us live, is 14 hours away.

I somehow fit me, all my hair crap, a full sized mermaid tail (courtesy of www.robotmonkeylab.com), a large sword, 2 models, and all our "necessities" in my tiny yaris.

Amazingly enough we didn't kill each other. We did however have crazy road adventures ... like almost getting blown up by a burning van and icky gas stations with cool wolf stickers.

We got into Houston around 8:30 p.m. I crashed for 1 hour and then headed to Mr.Picnic's studio to shoot. SINched was there with not only a corset but a whole beautiful outfit made just for me :) The extremely talented Lalo of Lalo Arts did my hair and makeup ... and kept me looking good throughout the shoot. And then Picnic worked his magic and the shoot turned out really great! I got back to the hotel room around 3:30 a.m. and didn't wake up till the afternoon.

Saturday evening the models and I made our way back over to the studio. From 5 to 10 it was non-stop hair/makeup styling and shooting. I'm really happy with how everything turned out and the ladies did so well! We went back to the hotel room and crashed for a few hours and then it was time to embrace the open road again.

I got a little bit of sleep in and then woke up early this morning for a hair class. I learned the "Tokyo Drift" which is really just a stylish mullet. -But mullets a really in right now, so I'll be doing a lot of them this fall at the salon.

Now it's catch up time before I hit Philly and then L.A. :D

STAY DEAD!

Nos

mid summer update

Hello SCARS readers!

It's hard to believe it's already July 15th! This summer is going by wicked fast which kinda makes me sad ... I'm enjoying it too much!

One of the many cool things I've gotten to be part of is ZIVITY.

There is fact we all have to face: Sometimes erotic photography is really bland and not worth your time. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE looking at photos of pretty naked girls. -Hell I enjoy BEING the pretty naked girl too! But when the photos look rushed and uninspired ... they do nothing for me.

Zivity.com is nothing like that and I adore it. The photography collection is stunning.You should check it out ONLY if you want to see me and other pretty girls naked!

The FIVE edit is coming along very well! I'm about half way done with the first cut. Still a ways to go but it's getting there! I'm really happy with the results too. My cast gave 110 % and it shows on screen!

As I type this blog Eric Stanze is working his butt off on RATLINE post-production. Every now and then I get a look at the footage and I'm really loving what I see! Book mark the official website for updates as they unfold:

This Friday I'm packing up and heading out on my first real road trip since I graduated from school. I'm off to Huston, TX to work with the world famous LITHIUM PICNIC (lithiumpicnic.com) and the fantastic clothing designer SINched. We haven't all collaborated since 2006 so it's long over due. I'm also putting together a top secret hair project while I'm there. I don't want to give anything away but in involves pretty girls like Sarah Swofford, Pandora Genocide, and Kaila Marie. (Kaila Marie is "Kayla" from the previous blog post)

Then it's a week of editing, then on to Philly, and THEN L.A.!

And then summer will be over :(

But the fall of 09' is looking pretty damn good too. I'll be the centerfold in the September issue of SCARS MAGAZINE !

STAY DEAD!

Nos

My birthday blog

Hello SCARS readers!

This is my first annual birthday blog post! Are you super excited? Good.

I am 25 today.

Many people seem to get upset over this number, I am proud to report I am not among them. I wasn't really sure how I'd feel today but as it turns out I am eerily calm. Like a Hindu cow - or however that saying goes.

Anyways a quarter of my life is over.

I'd like to think of it as smooth sailing from here ... but that might be a load of crap. I do know I'll be doing whatever the hell I want for the next 75 years and I highly encourage all of you to do the same. Life really is fucking short. - And that's if you get a 100 years.

So here it goes:

*If you are not the person you where at 18 ... good.

*If you are not happy with your career choice .... get a new job.

*If you are not happy with the people you've surrounded yourself with ... find new people.

It's what I've learned in 25 years anyway.

Well that's my birthday message! Thanks for reading :)

STAY DEAD!

Nos

Past, Present, and Future.

There was a time when not everything had been done already.

In this magical time filmmakers didn't seem very afraid to take risks. Great art was made and devout fans followed. Then somewhere along the line movies started to repeat themselves and (most) filmmakers lost their balls.

And it seems the horror genre is still recovering from it.

I feel a large part of problem is the total lack of faith directors/actors/producers have in horror. I've herd it many times: "Horror movies are the lowest form on entertainment.", "I'm a real actor so I don't do horror films.", "Horror films never have a real plot" and so on...

I've never been entirely sure where this mentality comes from. Horror films, historically, make good money. In fact it's one of the only genres of film that appreciates in value over time. Think about it: How many times have you seen a NIGHT OF THE LIVING DEAD lunch box, a Freddy action figure, or a SUSPIRIA t-shirt and bought it? I rest my case.

Horror is also one of the genres where you can be in one film for ten minutes, as child, and twenty years latter still sell your autographs at a conventions. - And those snarky little comets about Horror movies never having a plot? Well I can't even begin to list all the goddamn films that prove those statements wrong.

However, with all that being said, we as horror advocates have made it very easy for people to draw critical opinions in the last ten years. I sometimes feel that even those who love horror don't respect it enough to make a descent movie. I'm not going to get into name calling here but I think those certain titles are easy enough to find.

If you know you've made a pile of shit, why do you release it? Why not just bury it in the back yard and start over? You're not doing anyone any favors, including yourself, by putting out a terrible movie. -And for the record I'm not bashing the b-movies or the trash films .... I'm referring to the unwatchable garbage floating around out there.

Here's a thought: How about we all try our best to put out GOOD and CREATIVE art? Let's have some respect for the horror film! There's no reason we can't see a "second coming". Not all the good ideas have been taken and there's still time to grow a pair!

SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?

Xo

Nos

STAY DEAD

It's tattooed across my knuckles. I end all my posts with it. I LIVE by it. -But I've never really sat down and told the story behind STAY DEAD. Until today ....

It all started in ye old 2005. I was working at a rather soul crushing day job to make ends meat. In fact, "soul crushing" might be putting it lightly ... long days in a small cube, under florescent lights, having people scream at me about their cell phones. The manager's where even worse. One of the plucky old birds, who really had it in for me, was in the habit of giving me daily speeches about how this was the BEST I could hope for. She also told me that my tattoos where disgusting and that one of my family members was going to hell because he killed himself.

2005 was a stupid year.

I decided to drink it all away on New Years Eve. At some point in the evening a sharpie was found and things got written on naked bodies. Needless to say I was one of said bodies ....

I walked to a guy and asked him the write something on my knuckles. He thought about it for a minute and then wrote STAY DEAD across my fingers. - It was like a light bulb went on.

I looked at him and all he said was "It's you."

The next morning it was still on there and I was still in love with it. It was me. I started writing it on everything ... my new creed. Then came the day I ditched work and got it permanently inked on me. And everything got better after that.

STAY DEAD means be true to yourself and dead to the world. No matter what.

It's on my knuckles because I'm a lifer.

Nothing to hide.

Nothing to go back on.

Just me, my art, and my mission. From here till I rot.

STAY DEAD!

Nos

Summer of 09' update

Greetings SCARS readers!

As promised, the summer of 2009 is crazy busy. RATLINE director Eric Stanze is knee deep in his paper edit and we are shooting one more scene at the end of this week!

We did wrap the shoot but I found some amazing new talent hiding in the depths of Decatur, IL. Her name is Kayla and she IS the next big thing. You just don't know it yet. Stay tuned for more updates on her ...

RATLINE the official website is up !!! Check it out at:

http://www.wickedpixel.com/ratline/

FIVE, the movie I wrote/produced/directed/shot, is going full speed ahead in the edit room now! It's not a horror movie but I feel the horror fans will still enjoy it. The movie stars Jim VanBebber(DEAD BEAT BY DAWN, MANSON FAMILY), Amanda "Apnea" Pemberton (PLAY BOY, SUICIDE GIRLS, INTERNATIONAL FETISH MODEL), and Ugly Shyla (ALT MODEL, DOLL ARTIST, SOUTHERN BELL)

Speaking of Ugly Shyla ... if don't know who she is by now, you need to.

She makes surreal fine art dolls that are to DIE for. She's also an extremely an accomplished model and performer. One of the last true American artists!

http://www.uglyart.net/

and

http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5433260

So the rest of June will be taken up by RATLINE and FIVE.

In July I will resume travel and will be shooting with LITHIUM PICNIC and CHAD MICHAEL WARD ... among others.

I've also started a fan page: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Nos/107382796833

add me for exclusive photos/updates you won't see anywhere else.

STAY DEAD!

Nos

THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE

Very near and dear to my black little heart is a film called THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE.

First discovered it while I was in high school and just cutting my teeth on *good* horror movies. I remember the images of what I saw (or rather what I thought I had seen) haunted me for days. A couple years went by and I revisited the film and to my surprise it was not nearly as gory as I had remembered it. I brushed it off and the movie has had a permanent place in viewing rotation ever since.

I've noticed that in conversations about the "goriest movie you've ever seen" MASSACRE tends to be one the first 3 movies out of someones mouth. The first couple times I herd this I just let it go ..... but over the years I've herd it SO much I feel I need to address it publicly:

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD.

I've counted. There are 4.5 blood spill scenes in the movie.

1.) Ed Neal cuts his palm in the van.

2.) Ed Neal cuts Paul Partain on the arm in the van.

3.) Marilyn Burns get the tip of her finger cut for grandpa.

4.) Gunnar slips and cuts his own leg with chainsaw.

.5) Paul Partain does squirt blood while getting hit with the chainsaw ... HOWEVER you do not see chainsaw contact.

The opener has a couple of slimy corpses and there are assorted body parts in the house. But when you really sit and watch it ... MASSACRE has less gore than JURASSIC PARK.

This is not a slam on the movie in anyway. In fact it's the greatest complement one can give to a horror film. It didn't need gore to scare the fuck out of you. Those horrible things you have in head after watching are all implied ... a masterful trick played on you, the viewer.

THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE truly stands the test of time. To this day it's hard not to be uneasy while watching it, even if it's for the 40th time.

Truly amazing.

STAY DEAD!
Nos